The Year In 25 Questions

birthdayLet me tell you a small secret:

I don’t really enjoy my birthday.

Okay, wait, that’s not completely true. I don’t enjoy the DAY on my birthday. The evening is fine. And I think it would be better if my birthday were on a better day.

I have very rarely been able to consider my birthday normal. There is this strange hype around mine, because it’s on a major party day. People always ask me if I’m going out (yes, I will), or if I’ll be drinking (not really). I figure, if my birthday were on a regular day, not New Years Eve, there wouldn’t be much of a fuss.

Especially the past few years, where I’ve been living by myself, the day of my birthday just seems long and drawn out. I used to hate the idea of working on my birthday, but now I like the idea of being able to do something through the day so I can at least get to the evening.

Today, I woke up exceptionally early for a day off and my birthday, and spent the morning just napping and waiting for something good to come on TV. I eventually found myself watching Inside Out on Netflix (Because naturally, you want a good cry on your birthday… Wtf self) and walked the dog. Now I’m watching The Avengers and drinking a frozen Mudslide, because it’s 5pm somewhere. It was very exciting because I got to use my brand new blender which also turns into a food processor. So pretty much, it’s ALL the kitchen appliances I wanted this year in one little thing of magic.

I’m not very good at relaxing though, so I can’t really enjoy this day off of nothing to do, because I’m just waiting. Waiting for the right time to head out to my friends’ place, waiting for… something to happen.

 


 

2017 will hopefully be a big year for me. I’m not normally one for big resolutions, but this year I am going to make some big life changes. Earlier this fall, my doctor went and scared me about my health. I decided that I would do something about it though. The past six weeks, I’ve cut my consumption of pop from daily to only on special occasions. Starting January, I’m going to try and really make some changes with my health. I won’t get too much into it here on this site, because I made the ultimate in commitments and bought a domain JUST for my diet blog. Feel free to check out Big Girl, Big Goals and follow on the Facebook page if you want to help be part of my support team and join in my year of healthier living and hopefully weight loss.

25 Questions To Ask At the End of the Year

  1. What am I most proud of this year?
    Probably finishing my Social Media Management certificate. It’s been a tough year, but I’m heading on the right path, work wise.
  2. How can I become a better _____________?
    Lets go with “better person” I think I can become a better person by caring more for myself in the future.

  3. Where am I feeling stuck?
    Oh my god, everywhere it seems. I’d love to get a good job and move on financially in the next year.
  4. Where do I need to allow myself grace?
    I really need to be more forgiving about my mistakes and disadvantages. I hope in the next year, I’ll be able to be able to accept myself better.
  5. Am I passionate about my career?
    I am passionate about my future career! I’m excited to see how things go for me.
  6. What lessons have I learned?
    Probably that I need to relight the fire under me to get things going again.
  7. What did I my finances look like?
    Horrendous. I wish I could do something to improve them, but that will take time.
  8. How did I spend my free time?
    Napping, or doing courses online. I am very bad at how I spend my free time.
  9. How well did I take care of my body, mind, and soul?
    Body: Terribly.
    Mind: I think I’ve improved over the past year?
    Soul: I don’t know. The other night I kinda scared the shit out of myself thinking about death and I had nothing to comfort me, so maybe I need to work on this more.
  10. How have I been open-minded?
    I think I have been very accepting of different opinions, and have taught myself how to be more accepting of different people as well.
  11. When did I feel most creatively inspired?
    This year, I didn’t feel very inspired until I was working on social media stuff. It’s not exactly what I used to call creative, but it’ll do this year.
  12. What projects have I completed?
    I started two new websites: my personal portfolio page, and my weight loss blog. I also completed a certificate program at George Brown College in Social Media Management. 🙂
  13. How have I procrastinated?
    I procrastinated in getting real work I think this year. I did a few odd jobs and part time work, but nothing stuck. This coming year, I’m going to really work on freelancing and getting a full time job.
  14. In what ways can I re-structure my time?
    I really need to learn how to structure my time so that I can do a lot of freelance work, and then learn to also enjoy my free time.
  15. How have I allowed fear of failure hold me back?
    It seems to hold me back constantly. I really need to learn to work on my fear of failure, because it holds me back from even the simplest things.
  16. Where has self-doubt taken over?
    Probably when I’m trying to get new clients. I seem to cover it up easily enough, but it’s a very long process to psych myself up when networking and reaching out to new people.
  17. When have I felt the most alive?
    I’m not too sure really. I feel like the last time I really felt alive, I was working overseas. Maybe I should work on that.
  18. How have I taught others to respect me?
    I don’t know this one either. I HOPE people respect me, but I’m too full of self-doubt to see it.
  19. How can I improve my relationships?
    I could improve my relationships by getting more of them and getting to know my social circle better.
  20. Have I been unfair to anyone?
    I hope not!
  21. Who do I need to forgive?
    I think I still need to forgive people who hurt me when I was a teen. They all seemed to have moved on – I don’t know if I have completely.
  22. Where is it time to let go?
    This year I let go of trying to be an ESL teacher. It just didn’t work out no matter how hard I tried, so I’m trying to find something I can be passionate about.
  23. What old habits would I like to release?
    I would LOVE to be done with the habit of doubting myself. I’d like to be able to just have more faith in my abilities and get down to business.
  24. What new habits would I like to cultivate?
    I’d like to start cooking a lot more for myself.
  25. How can I be kind to myself?
    I’d like to have more faith in myself. I’d like to have some more confidence in my abilities and my personality.